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Sunday 27, 2010.
Today I woke up off kilter. When I say that my body is not here but still here. My concentration is off, my body hurts and aching. I have medications that can combat that, but they have side effects, like making me feel stupid and not attentive. With the kids I am not able to take these meds. I am not able to concentrate on taking care of them. I am afraid that something horrible will happen if I take them with the kids around. Some of my main concern is that this sluggish feeling not able to concentrate, is taking it's toll on Rachael. I am so fortunate, which I do not express enough to her, that I am lucky to have her around to take care of me. Rachael is saying that it is depression and it does not allow me to enjoy the day that I am capable of. Especially with the boys, they and I are missing out on a lot of time together that I cannot get back. I am going to talk to the Doctors and Nurses tomorrow at dialysis and see if they can prescribe something to let me get up and just have the energy and positive attitude. But I do not want to say that prayer does not come into it. I continue to ask the Lord for spiritual healing. For He is going to allow me to be energetic Parent and person. It is not a good feeling not able to get up a stairs or even to go outside and take the boys to swim.
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